Insecurities

My not loving myself effects my relationship with my husband. We are newlyweds so we don't have a lot of foundation yet. My lack of confidence and insecurities has put strain and frustration on my husband, which causes me to be even harder on myself. He is constantly having to affirm my value to him because my insecurities are so obvious. When I noticed these things was when I realized I needed to change. This man is the best human I have ever met. He is loving, compassionate, fun, strong, smart, attractive, ect. I don't want to loose this because of myself. In order for our relationship to be stable and strong, I need to be secure in myself without asking for his affirmations all the time. This is what happens when a child grows up without love. When a child is verbally beat down to nothing as a child. I didn't think I could do anything right as a child. Now the lack of love in my childhood is manifesting into my adulthood. Red flags are in huge air!